My name is Sgt. J. C. Estrada USMC Dis. Vet.
I'm stressed, depressed and suicidal.
I think about suicide at least twice a day. I don't have PTSD, at least not service related. I've been depressed and suicidal since 1999. I can't count how many tomes I've tried it.
I got 10% disability for something that happened while on duty that didn't allowed me to continue with my career, nor with any Government Agency (ICE, PD, SD) and still for some reason I only qualified for 10%... I was a Marines Marine, great pros and cons. Picture perfect they wrote, a diamond in the rough, walks on water. I was sent to different commands from my unit and did an outstanding job. I was sent from Okinawa to California to an Air Force Base to take care of a HiPri office. In 99 2 days prior leaving Okinawa I was charged with larceny (even thou I was the one who called the MP's twice) My Marines were not allowed to testify, the original NCIS agent was not allowed to testify. She told them it could not have been me; since we were all out together that weekend (we went camping and she was with us) she was kicked out of the case and they waited until I was set to leave the island to do the interrogation. I was told if I didn't confess I would go to Levanworth for 4 years. So I said I did it ( it came I lied in court on my polygraph when I took the Denver PD test, because I said I did it). We all knew Gysgt Evertsen came to the office late at night while we were getting ready to leave for the weekend. We knew he had a car accident and needed 400.00 for the insurance(what came out missing). I called the cops, I made the report. Why would I if I was guilty. I had plenty of money in the bank to pay that and more. They said mine were the only prints they found, mind you I was the newest Marine there and every one sat on that safe and touched it.
I was up for a Navy Com but it was ripped in front of me, I was called a s**t bag, a disgrace, that I didn't deserve to wear the uniform. Mind you this was my dream, my life, I had no other plans but to spend the life in the Corps. Thank you MGySgt Plah.
I was told I was inexperienced and judged by my past by Msgt Rosenberg. Passed me over for Sgt promotion for 2 years when I had the scores. I had to signed I waiver saying I couldn't enlist because I couldn't get promoted and they set me up for separation, I was hurt, they said they will pay me 35,000.00 separation money and that was that. But instead a couple of weeks before leaving they said "oh you were supposed to get promoted 2 months ago, so they backdated it and left me without separation pay or without being able to re enlist since the waiver was signed.
I tried contacting POTUS to open and review my case. I tried asking the VA for help and the congressman to no avail.
I was just damaged goods to them, worth 126.00 a month.
So this is my suicide letter. This is for you Gysgt Evertsen, MGySgt Plah and Msgt Rosenberg. Glad you all got to retire and leave your dream. I never did....